@BaronessElsa

whom one had I used – for a joke or some other purpose – that of revenge on the man –

for after all she did not seem to wish to part with him definitely – or he not with her. I know- next morning – I felt like a poor ninny –

whose money she used – but it was not enough – and so she had to get back on him somehow –

it seemed to me – all this was put on – just for being not satisfied with anything – and to use her power to make this man miserable –

when we were together in bed – she preferring to sleep with me – for decency’s sake – for I was supposed to have “nowheres to go”-

it only convinced me that she did not like her lover who slept on the sofa –

Besides – she was attractive. Well our one night together did not convince me of the thing –

I’ll do everything once.

So this girl confessedly “fell in love” with one! I didn’t understand this – I didn’t believe it – but I am always ready to learn.

brought out my figure – and I wore a monocle by fancy – I didn’t put it in the eye – I couldn’t – just letting it hang.